It makes no sense to me that you always try to “protect” me. I don’t ever recall calling your daughter a slut because she wears shorts was ever in the parenting of the year book. I am my own person. I will wear what I want, when I want, and how I want, I don’t need you telling me how to live MY life. I never can do anything because of you. I’m not 8 anymore, I’m almost 16, I’m mature for someone who is 16, because I was forced to grow up. No one else in this fucking house is an “adult” or at least no one acts like it. You keep me from the real world, what is that doing to me? Nothing good, because when I do get out on my own I’m going to be the wildest bitch you’ve ever fucking seen, I’m nothing like Kayla and Rita, STOP FUCKING TREATING ME LIKE I AM! I’m better than them, I don’t understand why you think you’re obligated to act like my fucking savior, you’re not! You can’t save me from everything. I swear when I get out on my own I’m going to buy so much shit, like all those fucking clothes you say I look like a whore in. I can’t even wear a tank top unless something’s covering it. All of my friends can wear and pretty much do what they please, but no, I have you for parents. I’m so ready to turn 18, that way I can get the fuck away from you, I’m never coming back when I leave, I’m going to go find my real mother, maybe she’ll still want me. I’m leaving you guys in the dust. If my real mother doesn’t want me then I’ll find a way to make it on my own, I’m never considering you my parents again once I leave. You will be just a passing face. I hate you with every beat of my heart, my hatred for you grows with in me, I hate you and your stupid fucking kids! I’m so fucking glad I’m not your real daughter! I would have fucking done 10x’s worse and when I do move out, you’ll see just what kind of slut I really am! Leave me the fuck alone you and your worthless fucking family. I hate you, I FUCKING HATE YOU ALL!

I don’t understand why people try to take away something that makes at least one person happy. Before your mother broke us up we were extremely happy, we were inseparable. Now that we are trying this another time around, you are more into other people and you’re treating me as if I’m just a friend. It makes me cry at night that you feel guilty about Delanie. It hurts so much to know that you still want her. I am unhappy. I was happy, now I’m not. This second time isn’t any better than the first time. I don’t know what I have done wrong to you, or what I’m doing wrong. I’m trying to be a better person. I’ve stopped a lot of bad habits and you see right through them. You act as if you don’t care anymore, why should I care when you don’t? It hurts to know that you think love is all fun and games, and I’m the one taking it seriously. I knew someone just like you. She used the word freely, and she never meant it. That girl was me. Now that I’m ready for love, you want to come and rip my heart from my very chest and watch it beating on the ground. You really don’t understand how unhappy I am with you. I love you, but just because two people love each other, it doesn’t mean they’re meant to be. I am trying to be happy with you, but it’s hard when all you want to do is stab me in the heart and then apologize, I don’t know how much longer I can keep holding in guilt, anger, and unhappiness. I’m trying as hard as I can to be as happy as I can. It’s hard when you don’t care. 

So, I really love this guy, he claims to love me as well. Hmmm. Lately he’s been ignoring my calls, not texting me back, and avoiding me on Facebook. Well, he promised me forever. I guess forever isn’t that long after all. Thanks Trevor.

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Sometimes I miss my old friends, but then I look around and see how my new friends have made a better life for me. I don’t do half of the things that some older friends talked me into. I don’t set things on fire anymore, I don’t ignore my parents commands, I am a nicer person, I don’t even have the urge to skip school anymore, and I don’t feel the need to be judged anymore, because I don’t have that negativity around anymore. I loved you guys a lot, but you just brought me down further than I needed to be. You have made great impacts on me, but not the positive impacts. I love life now, and most of my old friends led me to cut myself, because they always talked bad about me, but I’m not letting them phase me anymore. I am my own person AND GODDAMNIT! I’M GONNA FUCKING ACT LIKE IT! 

I love my daddy. Other girls say that their dad just doesn’t understand them or that he is keeping them away from guys. Well I am happy my daddy has done nothing, but protect me. I want to thank him for that because I would have made horrible mistakes if he hadn’t been there to keep me off the ground. I honestly probably would have like a gajillion kids by now if I didn’t have a daddy like him, but thanks to him I am still a virgin and before I turn 16 and get into serious relationships(not sex serious) I would like to dedicate these next 4 months to him. He is my world. I am such a daddy’s girl it’s not even funny. But I just figured I would right this about my daddy in case if I ever get mad at him all I have to do it come here and look at everything good he was done for me and here’s that list:

1.) He has protected me from danger.

2.) He loves me.

3.) He believes in me.

4.) He’s taught me things, which I used to think were pointless.

5.) He has showed me ways to which I NEED to live my life by.

6.) He’s there when I need advice.

7.) He’s there when I am crying.

8.) He’s taken great care of me.

9.) He’s made me look at life from others’ perspective.

10.) He let’s me be me but with limits.

11.) He’s kept me from looking like a slut.

12.) He’s bought me everything I practically own.

13.) He has never given up on me.

14.) When I was in band, he went to EVERY competition and game and even the practices.

15.) He supported me with all of my decisions.

16.) He has been strict.

17.) He has never once degraded me on purpose.

18.) We have a bunch of inside jokes.

19.) He let me buy all of my fish.

20.) He cares for my fish when I can’t.

That’s just a few I can really think of, but he has helped me with billions more things(:

I REALLY LOVE MY DADDY!!!! <33